April 18th- International Jugglers Day
I didn't necessarily juggle objects today, but tasks and emotions.
I woke up this morning thinking: Please god, let it be Saturday. Please.
That's how badly I did not want to go to school.
My weekend (sad but true) was solely dedicated towards homework. I squeezed in some time with my man, but just barely. And that was only enough time to watch Psycho and eat an embarrassing amount of sushi. It was unlimited okay?
But today, after all that hard work.. I needed a 'mental health day'. However, the 'book talk' of sorts that I had been preparing for was due to be presented at 9:00 am. So I gave in, but barely giving myself enough time to get ready. I went to school without even having coffee- that's how little time I had. 
The presentation went well, but that's besides the point. 
After that, there was NOTHING keeping me going..
So I ended up not going to two classes. Instead of chatting in journalism, and getting overwhelmed by confusion in a chemistry lab, I used my time to socialize and work on math homework in what I now know exists in the KSS Library: the Secret Room. It really is not secret, but I went almost 3 years in that school without knowing of its existence.
Getting back to the juggling...
I felt a little out of my own body today.. and I don't know why. The best reasoning I can conjure is that the strongly lit flame that I have had going for so long.. is burning out. School-wise, I mean. 
I have been working so hard, wasting so much paper for my to-do lists, and even more brain power planning and time managing to get things done, that I think my wick is running short. It is now the final stretch of the school year, simultaneously thrilling and terrifying. 


I reflected a lot today, especially after pilates and meditating. I want to be able to look back on this time now and not be disgusted with poor attendance or motivation. I want to see my success but more importantly to be content with it. 


That's where I'm at right now. 


April 19th- Humorous Day
Lots of good things today:
- Slept in until 8:45 :)
- Had coffee dates with ma girlfriends
- Started planning some grad and post-grad things
- Studied for math (well not fuuun, but was productive)
- Got a present from my lit teacher


Since we had just finished up our Frankenstein extravaganza in literature class.. My teacher loaned me a parody film, "The Young Frankenstein" for my own viewing pleasure and a bit of comic relief for the stressful times I'm experiencing lately. 


I must say.. I have never laughed out loud so LOUD and so FREQUENTLY when I've been by myself.  Usually, if I'm watching something funny by myself, I snicker quietly to myself. I don't know why, that's just how I do. 
But this movie was hilarious. Exactly what I needed.

Igor :)

And I recommend it to any people with a good appreciation of Mary Shelley's story, and black and white comedies. 


April 20th- Hitler's birthday... Yay.
420... Yay.
Well, needless to say.. I did not partake in either of these holidays.
But in anticipation for what I am doing tomorrow night... I will pretend that tomorrow is Cuckoo Day.
I'm not sure what this entails in reality...
But for me it consists of renting "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" with my boytoy and famjam. 
Can't wait.

All for now,


Aimee OC